"Funny how the heart can be deceiving, more than just a couple times.Why do we fall in love so easy, even when it's not right?"
We put our hearts through a lot and sometimes it is just plain exhausting. Some of us are willing to be knocked down several times and still get back up, but I think you can only do that so much until you lose your spirit. I know this because I almost lost mine. Over the past year I have learned so many things; from myself, strangers, and my friends. But, one of the main things I have learned is that you cannot do anything about how your heart makes you feel - your emotions. If you love someone - no matter how good or bad it is for you - it is a difficult thing to overcome. For me personally, I tried to give all I had time and time again and it was never enough. And for what? For someone who didn't truly appreciate what I wanted out of life, who cheated on me several times, and told me to my face that he didn't care if I left or not. I don't really care how dramatic this sounds, but he damaged my spirit. And I thought my spirit was completely broken after the break-up, but I realized that it wasn't - at all. Every little bit we go through happens for a reason and we obviously all know that. I know that I didn't waste 4 years of my life being in a relationship with him because I was able to experience a lot of great things. I mean, I lived in another state for 6 months; such a beautiful place where I met a lot of amazing people. Basically, I guess, if you think you are doing something wrong in life, you probably aren't. (Unless you're addicted to drugs, you're a murderer, etc. then you probably are doing something wrong and you may need to consider straying away from those bad habits - ha ha.)
Obviously, had my relationship not ended ... I would have never met my current boyfriend. Granted, we may not know each other that well yet, but you will never fully know a person. You can spend years and years with a person and still learn new things. However, I have more of a connection with him than I had in my 4+ year relationship. I know what love is and I know that I love him. Sometimes I feel like I have missed him my entire life and quite honestly, that feeling is crazy.
We put our hearts through a lot and sometimes it is just plain exhausting. Some of us are willing to be knocked down several times and still get back up, but I think you can only do that so much until you lose your spirit. I know this because I almost lost mine. Over the past year I have learned so many things; from myself, strangers, and my friends. But, one of the main things I have learned is that you cannot do anything about how your heart makes you feel - your emotions. If you love someone - no matter how good or bad it is for you - it is a difficult thing to overcome. For me personally, I tried to give all I had time and time again and it was never enough. And for what? For someone who didn't truly appreciate what I wanted out of life, who cheated on me several times, and told me to my face that he didn't care if I left or not. I don't really care how dramatic this sounds, but he damaged my spirit. And I thought my spirit was completely broken after the break-up, but I realized that it wasn't - at all. Every little bit we go through happens for a reason and we obviously all know that. I know that I didn't waste 4 years of my life being in a relationship with him because I was able to experience a lot of great things. I mean, I lived in another state for 6 months; such a beautiful place where I met a lot of amazing people. Basically, I guess, if you think you are doing something wrong in life, you probably aren't. (Unless you're addicted to drugs, you're a murderer, etc. then you probably are doing something wrong and you may need to consider straying away from those bad habits - ha ha.)
Obviously, had my relationship not ended ... I would have never met my current boyfriend. Granted, we may not know each other that well yet, but you will never fully know a person. You can spend years and years with a person and still learn new things. However, I have more of a connection with him than I had in my 4+ year relationship. I know what love is and I know that I love him. Sometimes I feel like I have missed him my entire life and quite honestly, that feeling is crazy.
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