It's been almost one whole month since my last post. Whoa. I have had very few exciting things happen since then, but I am sitting in my room with all of these thoughts that no one cares about, but myself, so it is time to write. Warning: These thoughts are going to bounce from one wall to the next.
Thought #1:
I don't know a whole lot about blessings, but if they are the real deal, then I have been blessed a mass amount in my life. Mainly with the people in my life. Hands down, they are some of the most precious little creatures. I know I can call up any one of my best friends for whatever reason and they will listen to me. I am so thankful for that and I have no idea how I landed these people. Three months ago when I thought my entire world was coming to an end (dramatic, I know), they were there. They are the people that made the situation something bad THAT happened in my life, instead of something bad that IS happening in my life. I also want to mention my job and my coworkers. I may not have one of the best jobs out there, but I never go to work angry and I rarely leave angry. Even when I spill an entire thing of chili on the floor and it splatters all over the cabinets and myself - I manage to leave in a decent mood. I love my boss and my coworkers, but they're more than that, they're family. I am so happy to be able to say that because I know a lot of people cannot.
Thought #2:
This one is about dating. Who invented it? I mean damn. It has got to be one of the most nerve-wracking and scariest things you encounter in your life time. Obviously that is just a personal opinion, but I am sticking to my guns. I recently went on a date with this great guy and even though I know how great he is, I am so iffy. I just have to keep reminding myself that things take time and time also happens to be a bitch. I also know a lot of it has to do with the fact that I just got out of a relationship 3 months ago and for some people that is plenty of time, but I guess it is not enough time for this girl. By that I mean, I will continue to go on dates, but another relationship scares the akljdf right out of me. Time will change that.
Thought #3:
I've had a lot of "me time", so that involved a lot of thinking. This thought is really not to bash my ex, but to just vent and kind of bash myself a little. I was delusional to think that my last relationship was going to end happily ever after. Maybe not completely delusional, but pretty far up there. He had THE BIGGEST issue with being faithful that it was ridiculous. I loved him, so I tried putting it in the past time after time and trying to make our relationship better. I never like to say anything is a waste of time, but dammit, that was a waste of time. Ladies, if you continue to find out that your man is talking to other "ladies" behind your back, he deserves no chances. Don't be an idiot. I was an idiot with a big heart and now, I still have a big heart, but I will not let myself be an idiot again. I realize what I'm worth and what I deserve. I really don't like that my heart had to break to realize these things, but it did. All of this has played a huge factor in getting over what happened. Once I came to grips with the fact that the relationship probably should have ended a long time ago, I started crying less, laughing more, and appreciating myself and what I have. The bitch, AKA time, will also play a factor in those things.
Thought #4:
This is the happiest thought. I got a new car and when I say new, I mean brand spankin' new! 2013 Hyundai Accent. She is beautiful! The color of her is mocha and because of that my uncle named her Mocha, sooooo I think her official name will be Mocha. For me, getting a new car goes way beyond the material factor of having something new, it is a stepping stone for me. Basically, I always thought I was doomed credit wise and the thought of getting a loan was out of my head. However, I was able to get a loan all by myself and that means so much to me. I could still cry about it, ha ha. Needless to say, I am extremely proud of myself.
Thought #5:
I recently started Zumba classes and they are wonderful. The instructor is wonderful! I have noticed a change in my energy level and my mood. It really is awesome what exercise will do for you. Between the Zumba classes and walking to and from work, the exercise is great. For me, it is not all about weight loss, but just about being healthy. Weight loss will just be a huge bonus if that ever does happen. I even managed to get my grandma involved in Zumba, which is also wonderful for her health!
Thought #6:
I am going to call it a night. I have bored you enough with all of my thoughts. So, I hope you are all living extraordinary lives :) Goodnight.
Thought #1:
I don't know a whole lot about blessings, but if they are the real deal, then I have been blessed a mass amount in my life. Mainly with the people in my life. Hands down, they are some of the most precious little creatures. I know I can call up any one of my best friends for whatever reason and they will listen to me. I am so thankful for that and I have no idea how I landed these people. Three months ago when I thought my entire world was coming to an end (dramatic, I know), they were there. They are the people that made the situation something bad THAT happened in my life, instead of something bad that IS happening in my life. I also want to mention my job and my coworkers. I may not have one of the best jobs out there, but I never go to work angry and I rarely leave angry. Even when I spill an entire thing of chili on the floor and it splatters all over the cabinets and myself - I manage to leave in a decent mood. I love my boss and my coworkers, but they're more than that, they're family. I am so happy to be able to say that because I know a lot of people cannot.
Thought #2:
This one is about dating. Who invented it? I mean damn. It has got to be one of the most nerve-wracking and scariest things you encounter in your life time. Obviously that is just a personal opinion, but I am sticking to my guns. I recently went on a date with this great guy and even though I know how great he is, I am so iffy. I just have to keep reminding myself that things take time and time also happens to be a bitch. I also know a lot of it has to do with the fact that I just got out of a relationship 3 months ago and for some people that is plenty of time, but I guess it is not enough time for this girl. By that I mean, I will continue to go on dates, but another relationship scares the akljdf right out of me. Time will change that.
Thought #3:
I've had a lot of "me time", so that involved a lot of thinking. This thought is really not to bash my ex, but to just vent and kind of bash myself a little. I was delusional to think that my last relationship was going to end happily ever after. Maybe not completely delusional, but pretty far up there. He had THE BIGGEST issue with being faithful that it was ridiculous. I loved him, so I tried putting it in the past time after time and trying to make our relationship better. I never like to say anything is a waste of time, but dammit, that was a waste of time. Ladies, if you continue to find out that your man is talking to other "ladies" behind your back, he deserves no chances. Don't be an idiot. I was an idiot with a big heart and now, I still have a big heart, but I will not let myself be an idiot again. I realize what I'm worth and what I deserve. I really don't like that my heart had to break to realize these things, but it did. All of this has played a huge factor in getting over what happened. Once I came to grips with the fact that the relationship probably should have ended a long time ago, I started crying less, laughing more, and appreciating myself and what I have. The bitch, AKA time, will also play a factor in those things.
Thought #4:
This is the happiest thought. I got a new car and when I say new, I mean brand spankin' new! 2013 Hyundai Accent. She is beautiful! The color of her is mocha and because of that my uncle named her Mocha, sooooo I think her official name will be Mocha. For me, getting a new car goes way beyond the material factor of having something new, it is a stepping stone for me. Basically, I always thought I was doomed credit wise and the thought of getting a loan was out of my head. However, I was able to get a loan all by myself and that means so much to me. I could still cry about it, ha ha. Needless to say, I am extremely proud of myself.
Thought #5:
I recently started Zumba classes and they are wonderful. The instructor is wonderful! I have noticed a change in my energy level and my mood. It really is awesome what exercise will do for you. Between the Zumba classes and walking to and from work, the exercise is great. For me, it is not all about weight loss, but just about being healthy. Weight loss will just be a huge bonus if that ever does happen. I even managed to get my grandma involved in Zumba, which is also wonderful for her health!
Thought #6:
I am going to call it a night. I have bored you enough with all of my thoughts. So, I hope you are all living extraordinary lives :) Goodnight.
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