"I don't know if this makes sense, but you're my Hallelujah." Yep. I may or may not be a Beiber lover. Nah, I totally am. I'm dancing to his newest song "As Long As You Love Me" and totally jamming out.
Anyway, I have been trying to write another blog and I've had some serious writer's block quite frankly my dears, it's been pissing me off. Writing just makes me feel a lot better, no matter what mood I'm in. I'm just an emotional little lady, ha ha.
I've had a great day today really. No major complaints besides the fact that Zumba was canceled, but that is so minor. I went on a walk instead and the weather was absolutely beautiful. I appreciate beautiful days so very much. Earlier a friend of mine informed me that one of his friends passed away and that brought back all of the feelings of January and June. For anyone that reads my blog, especially my friends, you know that we lost a great person in January. Everett is missed by all of us every single day. The pain that came along with that was intense, but time healed that. It didn't get better, but it did get easier; for me, anyway. Then, in June I experienced my break-up and I thought that intense pain would never go away, but time also healed that. We are faced with these things that we think we can never overcome and it just boggles our minds. I don't know exactly where I am going with this blog, but it is the first time I have been able to write in a couple of weeks, so I am just going with it. I guess what I am getting around to is that ... yeah, we are going to have these awful intense days, but you can never get this day back. Never. It's definite. Makes the most of it. Obviously I'm not that old, but as you get older, you really start to realize things, like time isn't slowing down. Like, when it comes to my parents... I know they have messed up a lot, but they're my parents and I love them. They gave me life. Then, there are my grandparents. They are the most special to me. For anyone that knows them and my relationship with them, they understand completely. My grandparents are not getting any younger and all the time with them is precious. Then... you have my younger brother. Me and him have not always seen eye to eye, but as we have gotten older I feel like we have gotten closer. Like, earlier today he invited me over to "show me something" and when I got there, he wanted me to watch a recorded live concert of the All American Rejects who are my favorite band. Even though it was something as simple as watching that together, it means a lot to me. That is just something else that I appreciate even as small as it may be. But, I cannot get those moments back...as simple as they may be. Okay, so I'm getting all sentimental.... I'm done now :) Onto other things...
For instance.. I've met this guy and he's great. I've been a little scared, okay a lot scared, of jumping into things and getting hurt again, but I'm done with that. Thank you Wilson Phillips... "Someday somebody's gonna make you wanna turn around and say goodbye, until then baby are you gonna let em hold ya down and make you cry. Don't you know, things can change, things can go your way..." They are some very smart ladies. Aside from them, though. He does make me happy and it would be pure nonsense to deny myself happiness. He makes me smile on a daily basis and well, that is just wonderful. That is it for now.. it will be "to be continued..." :)
That concludes my blog today... it kind of fizzled out I think, but I had great plans and I was finally able to write... thank goodness. I <3 writing. Goodnight, people :)
Anyway, I have been trying to write another blog and I've had some serious writer's block quite frankly my dears, it's been pissing me off. Writing just makes me feel a lot better, no matter what mood I'm in. I'm just an emotional little lady, ha ha.
I've had a great day today really. No major complaints besides the fact that Zumba was canceled, but that is so minor. I went on a walk instead and the weather was absolutely beautiful. I appreciate beautiful days so very much. Earlier a friend of mine informed me that one of his friends passed away and that brought back all of the feelings of January and June. For anyone that reads my blog, especially my friends, you know that we lost a great person in January. Everett is missed by all of us every single day. The pain that came along with that was intense, but time healed that. It didn't get better, but it did get easier; for me, anyway. Then, in June I experienced my break-up and I thought that intense pain would never go away, but time also healed that. We are faced with these things that we think we can never overcome and it just boggles our minds. I don't know exactly where I am going with this blog, but it is the first time I have been able to write in a couple of weeks, so I am just going with it. I guess what I am getting around to is that ... yeah, we are going to have these awful intense days, but you can never get this day back. Never. It's definite. Makes the most of it. Obviously I'm not that old, but as you get older, you really start to realize things, like time isn't slowing down. Like, when it comes to my parents... I know they have messed up a lot, but they're my parents and I love them. They gave me life. Then, there are my grandparents. They are the most special to me. For anyone that knows them and my relationship with them, they understand completely. My grandparents are not getting any younger and all the time with them is precious. Then... you have my younger brother. Me and him have not always seen eye to eye, but as we have gotten older I feel like we have gotten closer. Like, earlier today he invited me over to "show me something" and when I got there, he wanted me to watch a recorded live concert of the All American Rejects who are my favorite band. Even though it was something as simple as watching that together, it means a lot to me. That is just something else that I appreciate even as small as it may be. But, I cannot get those moments back...as simple as they may be. Okay, so I'm getting all sentimental.... I'm done now :) Onto other things...
For instance.. I've met this guy and he's great. I've been a little scared, okay a lot scared, of jumping into things and getting hurt again, but I'm done with that. Thank you Wilson Phillips... "Someday somebody's gonna make you wanna turn around and say goodbye, until then baby are you gonna let em hold ya down and make you cry. Don't you know, things can change, things can go your way..." They are some very smart ladies. Aside from them, though. He does make me happy and it would be pure nonsense to deny myself happiness. He makes me smile on a daily basis and well, that is just wonderful. That is it for now.. it will be "to be continued..." :)
That concludes my blog today... it kind of fizzled out I think, but I had great plans and I was finally able to write... thank goodness. I <3 writing. Goodnight, people :)
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