From the mind of the whipper snap.

They tell us not to compare because the comparisons will eat us alive. We will literally drive ourselves crazy if we keep comparing. But, how can we ever achieve better things for ourselves if we don't compare? When we go to buy a new car... we compare the specs and the price; we want the best deal. And absolutely, without a doubt in my mind, the same goes for a relationship. I have spent a lot of time avoiding comparing my last relationship with my current relationship, but anymore, it's a hard thing to do. True, I was not the one that deciding on the ending of my first relationship, but to me that is not the point. Okay, in car talk: It's like when you want the car of your dreams and it gets you by for a few years with troubles here and there, but then quits running on you one day. You are then left with no choice but to look for a new car. Except this time, you are looking for different specs, forget the price, unlike your last choice. Sometimes you just have to learn an

I haven't written in about a week and a half, which I feel kind of bad about, but in my defense I have been busy. Today, I woke up feeling...well, just bad all the way around. I did not sleep very well and that will pretty much do it every time. I went on a walk like usual and I figured that would make me feel better, but it didn't. When I got home from my walk I couldn't decide whether to have left over green bean casserole or cereal for breakfast. Then I thought: "If that's the biggest decision I have to make for the entire day, I am going to be just fine." I don't know. I am an utter crab ass today. Do you ever just get a "bad" feeling about something? Like, knots in your stomach? But, you don't even know why you have the bad feeling? That's how I feel and I haven't had one of those in a really long time, so it sucks. I apologize deeply for an awful blog. The end.

Ugh. Too much cauliflower and ranch :/ Onto more serious things that are non-digestive system related. I just spent a little time going back and skimming over the blogs I have written in the past 4-5 months. Honestly, I slightly blew my own mind. It is pure crazy how things change so much over a period of time. For instance, my blog entry on April 10, 2012 was a pretty simple and normal blog entry. Then, my entry from June 18th, I reveal the news of my big break-up. After that, there are quite a few entries that discuss my own feelings about the break-up, etc. Then, in September, I actually start talking about dating and how I am not really a fan of it, ha ha. Somewhere in October, I'm guessing mid-October, I let go of the past, the what could happens, and the heartache. Emotionally, I feel like I have overcome so much and I know that a lot of people don't care, don't think it's a big deal, or don't understand; but "a lot of people" do not matter. I wen

I have to be at work in about 20 minutes or so, but I really wanted to say the things I need to say... Parents, Newsflash: Just because you give a child life means nothing if you do not stand behind the true meaning of being a parent.  From my own perspective:   I feel like I have spent most of my life being a burden to my parents. It's not that I don't think they love me because I think that they do, but it feels more like one of those... "I gave you life... so, I love you." As a parent, I feel that you should always put your child and their best interests first... before anything. I struggle a lot with the stress of my own parents and for those of you that personally know them or me, you already know why for the most part. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents.. they gave me life and if not for them, I wouldn't be living the life I am living and I truly love my life and the person that I have turned out to be. There are a few minor kinks, but